Monday, April 30, 2012

Effortless

Effortless.

Tak de effort.

and yet expecting things are going to run the way you expect.

you made prediction from the start.

your prediction now hits the bull's eye!

no effort, no good result.

no practise, tergagap-gagap. duhhh

should i even be a teacher?

all the blames are to be put on you.

bukankah Allah dah pesan, Dia takkan mengubah apa yg ada pada sesuatu kaum sehingga mereka mengubahnya sendiri..

one more chance. GO FOR IT!

practise makes perfect. you know your weakness, work for it! make it worth :)

Bismillah.


Ili

Bungkam, kaku..Ili terlalu kecewa. kecewa dengan manusia, diberi bunga tapi dibaling tahi. sigh.
'apa lagi yang ak nak buat nie?, macam2 dah try. penat tau', mengomel Ili seorang. Dunia dirasakan tiada makna. Dirasakan terlalu menghampakan. Lalu, Ili mengambil keputusan untuk berdiam diri, memendam semua dalam hati.

'Eh Ili, bangunnn..bangunlahhh. Sampai bile nak berkurung macam nie?'. Hari nie, dah nak dekat seminggu Ili tak keluar rumah. Masa habis dalam bilik. Tido, selubung diri, solat jemaah dibawah pun dia tak turut serta. Ili, sensitif sangat orangnya, cepat benar makan hati. Usikan rakan-rakan yang kerap mengajuknya, cemburunya dia pada rakan baiknya, senyuman tak berbalas, jelingan mata yang penuh tajam dipahat dalam-dalam, dipeluk erat-erat, diambil bulat-bulat. Dirasakan tiada siapa yang peduli perasaannya. Sakit hati katanya. Jenuh mempersoalkan penatnya jadi orang baik. Tp kenapa sume orang buat jahat jugak?

"Baiklah, kalau macam nie, aku tanak kawan ngan sesape, buek peghabeh bogheh je..biar ak duduk sorang-sorang, esaimen sorang-sorang, makan sorang-sorang, jalan sorang-sorang, biar tenang sikit, takde nak sakit hati, pfffttt"

mungkin Ili lupe,

Seorang muslim, apabila dia menggauli manusia, dan bersabar dengan karenah atau ragam mereka, adalah lebih baik dari seorang muslim yang tidak menggauli manusia dan tidak sabar dengan karenah mereka.  -  (HR TIRMIZI)

Boleh je nak sorang-sorang, tp jangan lama sangat, takut jatuh terus. Sebab dengan bersama manusia, kita belajar hidup. Dengan manusia kita kutip pahala, pahala sabar, besar tuu. Boleh jugak dapat dosa, tp dah tau nie, xkan xnak sabar kot? Kutiplahh. kutiplah pahala tuu. Semoga dengan kebersamaan, kita makin dapat mengenal manusia, belajar keunikan manusia.

Sesungguhnya, Allah dah jadikan kita manusia bersuku-suku utk kita saling mengenal, best kan?


waterloo park :)

p/s: great times, cherish it. bad times, reflects and be happy that you experienced it :))) Alhamdulillah


Sunday, April 29, 2012

Time's up

The time is up.

i've always knew that it's over.

it was true that it wont last!

so long, goodbye.


p/s: i learnt that the dunya attachment is just going to hurt you. by hook or by crook, it is just going to hurt. Belajarlah, pergantungan hanya pada yang Satu :)

Friday, April 27, 2012

whine?

Bismillah..


A: i feel horrible today!

B: maybe, you've been a horrible slave?


sentap. 

to whine and keep on whining, manusia kan?

maybe, it's about time for us especially me to reflect. 

why bother asking for a good day when you don't even bother to serve the Giver?

#takmaluke? duhhh

p/s: light up our world with du'a :)

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Warrior



One thousand reasons to cry out
Is that a life?
A thousand reasons to smile, I tell you why
Consolation to you tears I'ma light up your way


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God never promised you days without pain
Laughter without sorrow 
Sun without rain
But He did promise strength for you every day

Still in Tears!! Oh how can I not be sad
For my guidance was
Was upon your hands
Wrapped around, I pray, I pray you understand



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From my mother I learned
Never is too late
That's its always possible to start out again
You may feel you've stopped but you're just on your way







p/s: the lyrics are just meaningful. teaches about life. about how we should face life, and to Allah only we hang and place our hope :)


cry out to Him, He loves that :)  

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Cat


BEWARE!

cat attack!!

haha i cant believe that all the cats are affected by the news that they were about to be brought to Hammer Bay- utk keamanan sejagat. Seriously, right after the announcement made by Cikgu Kamil, all the cats went mad!

Their poops are everywhere and everyday. yes, they do poo everywhere and everyday, but this time around, all of its are visible, seen and right in front of our rooms- i mean my friends' room. and i just cant believe that i've seen that 2days in a row, right when i woke up for fajr. not really a good start, no?


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Cerita pasal kucing, teringat yg rasulullah sgt sukakan kucing! meoww :)

Hurmm, teringat jugak kak diana cerita macam mana cat steven memeluk islam. Secara ringkasnya:

Suatu hari, abg si Cat Steven nie pergi ke Jerusalem lalu dia menjumpai al-Quran.
Dia duduk membacanya dan ckp,
"well, dis is good"
So, he brought back the Quran and met Cat Steven who was at that time
was just saved miraculously from drowning.

Before Cat Steven was saved, he prayed that if he's saved from this,
he'll make sure to commit and to help with the religion.
Suddenly, a big wave pushed him to the beach and he was saved.
Yet, he still didn't know what and how and didn't find a way to help with the religion after the incident.

And that's the time when his brother get back from Jerusalem with the Quran.
the brother said. " dis is beautiful, the language is amazing"...
As he read through the Quran, he felt so overwhelming.
Starting from that he learn the Quran and worship Allah.
Now, he is Yusuf Islam :)


so, apa bezanya abang dengan adik tu?

sorang baca dengan akal, sorang baca dengan hati...

Baca dengan hati, masuk dalam hati, hadirkan hati kita bila baca. Hayati bait2 indah kalam itu..letakkan diri, fahami situasi. utk faham, baca terjemahan jgn lupa. There's no use reading it without trying to understand it. then, try to apply it. We're so gonna be a good muslim. im struggling to be one too. But trust me, baca, faham, amal, itu kunci kejayaan ummah :)




Rotorua- pokok merah :D


p/s: winter is almost there.

- 1 month and a week. living without fesbuk, i hope im cured from the addiction :)

- not anymore a twitter addict :)

- *dialog dalam cerita adalah rekaan* but roughly, that is the story told to me.

- people, jom join usrah!


Peace be upon you ;)

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

metacognitive

figure 1


despite all the hectic-ness im living in now, i found it irresistibly calming for me to write. coz i know that would be one time when i wouldnt even have time to write at all. let say, when i start my practical next semester. okay, maybe it's not really a buzy life im living in right now. maybe, it's just me who make up stories about how busy my life is. lol. should i?

well, have you read that, figure 1? *penangan research project* yeah, it says if you took a risk and no matter how it will end up, you'll never regret it coz at least you know you'll end up that way. and these few months, i've been up thinking about things that i regret not doing back in my last 2years. i regret T.T. i regret it so much that i cry sometimes thinking about it. coz i will never know what will happen if it take the chance :(

i regret. why didnt i take the chance back then?
it was in front of me. right in front of my eyes.
why was i so rebellious, so hard, blind perhaps?
what makes me shutting off my eyes? arghhh

and i keep on thinking, if only i had one more year, i will take the chance. i will make it right. maybe, i'll be stronger. but, sadly, i dont have it. i dont have another year for it. all i have now is everything i have here.

*this is when metacognivite applies*

to think back again, that is all not my job. it's The above's job and all i have to do is to obey it. the fate and destiny that had brought me here and for everything that last back then had made me who i am today.

never regret.

it must be the best ever plan He planned for me. maybe, if i were to take the so-called-chance last time, i wouldnt be the person i am today. and there are only 2 possibilities which i could be better (which i think make sense) or even WORST. and that's the scary part of life, coz you can never predict the future.

again, in reflecting my not-yet-long life journey for the time being, i think, i should not think anymore about this thing *tongue twister kehkeh*. tak elokkan berkalau-kalau. berkalau-kalau tu kan mainan syaitan. and i better off here and stop thinking about my own thinking. owh, metacognitive is giving me a hardtime sometimes -_-"


p/s: i wanna stop babbling in my mind. duhhh.

Ya Allah, ak hanya mampu bersangka baik dgnMu :) sesungguhnya, Kau sebaik-baik perancang :)))

Sunday, April 15, 2012

suka

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim


biasa, kalau solat berdua je dngan bujang, mesti borak2 pjg lepas solat. ada yg merepek, ada jugak yg tak. tp biasa lepas solat, things get a bit serious, sometimes bout our problems and all..

sehari tu, bujang cerita pasal umar (cant believe that bujang likes umar too -_-")
klaka cite nie ;)

suatu hari, rasulullah merasa pelik melihat umar yg sedang duduk, tiba2 menangis dan ketawa sendirian.. lalu baginda bertanya kepada umar "wahai umar, kenapa kau
menangis lepas tu ketawa pula lepas tu?"

umar pun cakap..

" owhh, ak menangis kerana teringatkan di zaman jahiliyah ku,
ketika ak sedang penat menggali tanah utk menanam anak perempuanku,
anak perempuanku yg innocent tiba2 mengelap peluhku dan membuang pasir2 di bajuku..dan ak masih menanam dia setelah itu.. :("

"kemudian ak ketawa kerana teringatkan di zaman jahiliyahku juga,
ak telah menjadikan kurma sebagai tuhanku di sewaktu perjalanan..
tp kemudian ak lapar, lalu ak makan tuhanku itu..-_-"

teringatkan 2 cerita ini, umar pun menangis dan ketawa sendiri ;) kekekeke


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with amanda, last class, X5B :)



alhamdulillah tsummal hamdulillah

berjaya hantar rp and im on the cloud nine hehehe
rp is the worst ever assignment i had ever had! * errr, shouldnt say that, am i?*
whatever it is, it's done. just wait for the result and hopefully i could be grateful
afterall, efforts that count, aint it?

i just finish watching shrek 4. and i cant help myself to not, to not into the movie! *catchy nye to not to not* it was like WHATTTT. it's like im learning life from it. cant be much grateful to be able to learn from movies. some of the im-learning-life- movies are kungfu panda and this shrek 4...

shrek 4 taught me that no matter how hard ur life is, you just have to face it. look at it positively, it is you to make the change, no one else. you make the decision and you have to pay for it. dont make hassle and emotional decision, take control of urself. dont easily get mad. *self-reminder*

and remember rasulullah advise,

la taghdab, la taghdab, la taghdab..

jgn marah, jgn marah, jgn marah, sabar, sabar, sabar :)


p/s: joe reminds me a lot of william de jean and my fav lecturer, jean brick.. i miss going to the lectures to escape from 'boredom' and just to have fun. yes, i used to go to william's lect to escape doing assignment and to release the negative aura. the class was always full of positive people. METACOGNITIVE, CORNELL NOTES~ teringat main petik2 jari bagai ekekeke :))) - joe, you shouldnt have reminded me. sigh.

but that's alright, here is fun too. if not, we make it fun, okay? :)


Sunday, April 8, 2012

Bulan


mengeluh ak sendiri lagi malam ini.
melihat langit,
menanti bulan..
mana bulan?
kenapa tak muncul?

sayu ak terus menanti..
langit gelap. gelita.
merangkak terasa.
meraba mencari.
mana cahaya?
bila kan bersinar?

mencari bulan..
mana bisa ak jumpa tika ini..
tika hati ada titik2 ragu,
tika 'pelik' ada dalam diri.

adeihh rasa,
sila pergi,
matahari! cepatlah muncul, ak ingin pagi.


Monday, April 2, 2012

masa


sekarang nie musim esaimen..

sebenarnya, bila jadi student, every season is assignments' season... hoyeahhh
i have always thought that the messier the table, the brilliant the person is...
so, i put on some effort to make my table look as messy (yet in an educated way) as possible kehkehkeh *sepah pun perlu effort ke? :P *


revolution..


my second house back in MUV..bilik no.1 ;)





my first room back in Baitul Warith
-_-" comics, story books, toys and bottles? are dominating




closer look -lah sgt :P





latest. in pala.



we had a program yesterday (jumaat & sabtu). it took one whole day and everyone was so tired and it was just so obvious in their eyes. and we still have an assignment to be submitted on Monday and most of us havent started anything yet!

but, as much as i believe that they believe too that Allah will help us, indeed He never fails to fulfil His promise, i did it on time. finish at 12am ;D

make time for Allah, He will surely make time for you :)))

as for me, ive always prayed for Allah to barakah my time.."Ya Allah, berkatilah masaku"

masa itu ibarat pedang, andai tersalah cucuk, mmg xboleh ditarik balek. #sukahatije hehe


p/s: JOM!!!

xde motif letak gambar2 tu..ak mmg suke reminiscing2 nie :(

owhh, ak sgt suka nak ingtkan diri and most of us utk balance. balance study n dnt. one cant move without one another!