figure myself

i cant figure out why..

why did i feel this way,

such soft-hearted i am nowadays,

must be the tarbiyah that leads this feeling,

i am now so overwhelming.

tears come and tears go,

but the heart has never get a chance to rest,

missing You every now and then,

but shows no prove my love to You.

desperate to change,

finding no way,

looking for a heart-mechanic,

again, astray..

i need a stronger support,

hard-core tarbiyah,

wider ukhuwwah,

to set my heart at ease, at least temporarily.

this one is taken somewhere: "tidak aneh hamba yg mencintai tuannya, tp sungguh aneh tuan yg sgt mencintai hambanya" -amr Khalid

p/s: Ya Allah, pls grab and grip my heart.

- ak ade rasa yg berat. berat nie! xpaham. can You make me strong? i know You will :)

- just a couple of months left.

- #np make me strong